Sometimes I’m afraid to embrace change. Even if I’m not happy with the way things are, I’m afraid a change might leave me even more unhappy so I just leave things alone instead. But change and discomfort is often the road to growth and renewal. Sometimes we have to release our iron grasp on what we have to open our hands up, empty and ready, to something different and new.
I look back at my life, at the times when I let go of one thing and took hold of another, and I see how those times of risk and change helped me grow and move forward. And I think too that even if something hadn’t worked out the way I hoped, I still would likely have regretted not taking the chance more than I would have regretted the potential failure.
Right now I find myself in a holding pattern, afraid to move, afraid to try, afraid to speak—and it isn’t like me to be so paralyzed by fear. Why am I so afraid to move forward, to change, to speak? I don’t know.
I find this blog stands before me a frightful blank canvas and I’m so cautious to put up words, to speak my heart and open my soul in this space as I once did. I’m trying to face the fear, to say the words, to put myself out here once again.
I’ve hidden behind pictures and fluff but I thank you for your patience as I find my way back to the words, to the heart and soul of this space.
“Be like the bird who, pausing in her flight awhile on boughs too slight, feels them give way beneath her, and yet sings, knowing she hath wings.” Victor Hugo
Outside Air 
I recently had a very good friend tell me that it was time for me to soar… it scares the living you know what out of me… I am timid and very much like the lead character in Hinds Feet on High Places… Much Afraid… Thank you for sharing your words, they encourage me to join you in a journey of boldness. DAF
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I hope you will be brave…your words are always so beautiful to read.
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thank you, you are so kind.
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Change scares the living daylights out of me, especially when it’s unpleasant and you have to say to yourself, “This is the way life is now.”
There’s nothing wrong with pictures and “fluff” while you deal with change, re-group and re-focus. For what it’s worth, I enjoy all of it — the deep and the not-so deep.
This is your blog and when you’re ready, you’re ready. We’ll still be here. 🙂
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Thanks for the encouragement and for seeing the good even in the lighter posts :]
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Anything you write is fabulous. Fear not! Us bloggers are generally a nice audience xx
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Aww shucks :] You’re right, this little blogging community is always very kind so I have nothing to fear but my own insecurities….thanks for the encouragement and for always reading along.
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Well, as a future olive grove business partner, I need to keep up with your news. We mustn’t go into this thing blind. Ps, the woman with the Tuscan olive grove who’s blog I follow, recently blogged about her fig trees! What to do? Shall we get fig trees too?
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Yes, fig trees….this is the way forward. I know now that I simply can not live without them. Thank you for opening my eyes, my wise business partner.
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Well, one must be made aware of fig trees. It’s one of the basics of life, to have fig trees.
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I have been following your blog for a long time and you inspired me to start a blog. Please don’t stop being a motivator. Will keep you in prayer.
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Thank you so much for your kind words and for following along on this journey. It’s comments like this that keep me going when I get discouraged, so thank you.
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Your very best blogs have always been those that are written from your heart…so cut loose from the fear and say what you have to say! We who follow your writing are looking forward to what you have to say.
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Thanks for the encouragement; I will try :]
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